Even a tomboy grows up dreaming of the day she marries her first love. 

But my first love wasn’t meant for me. 
So we called off the engagement and went our separate ways.  

Some promises don’t come true, and some dreams are just… dreams. 
At 18 years old, I swore I had met my match. But time quickly made me realize love takes a lot more than just emotions. 

And Then There Was One
I enjoyed four years of the single life. A time when I learned a lot about myself and the things I wanted from life and relationships. 
I dated here and there, but most importantly, I dated myself. 
I fell madly in love with the person I had become. She was everything I hoped she’d be; determined, friendly, funny, and honest. 
I didn’t care if anyone else saw her beauty because she was amazing in my eyes. 
A Simple Celebration 
When Jeff and I met, marriage was one of the last things on my mind. 
But it definitely was on my mind.

It wasn’t on my mind because of Jeff,  it was on my mind because I wanted that, eventually. I wanted marriage when the time was right. 
I never got the wedding I had always dreamed of, nor did I ever get to use my Pinterest board on wedding tips and tricks (RIP “A Simple Celebration” Pinterest board, you were a fun idea). 
Jeff and I got married last year. It was short and sweet, but sometimes I wish I had actually celebrated it after. 
Maybe one day when the kids are older we’ll renew our vows. But for now, I’ll let go of that regret, and hold on to the love we have. 
Because after all, love is what makes a wedding day special. 

6 responses to “The Wedding I Didn't Have”

  1. A wedding doesnt make a marriage! ๐Ÿ˜‰ As long as you found your love that is all that matters. (but I never wanted a big wedding.. we got married with a total of 8 people there! ha!)

    • Thanks, Lauren. Your comment made me smile.

      I'm all for intimate weddings, but some times I wish everything played out like I've always wanted. But hey, when does anything ever go according to plans?! ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. I always relate to you! We haven't gotten married, even after being together since we were 17 and it's not because we haven't thought about it. I really want a simple celebration even though I have a whole Pinterest board also haha but I know, like you, that when the time is right it'll happen the way it should. I hope you get to renew your vows when your kids are older and celebrate together! ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Yes! It's so funny how we can relate to each other on so many levels.

      Your day will be so special because it's exactly what you two wanted. Love really defines what you have. To be with someone for so long is a blessing. There are marriages that last two days to months. I love to see photos of you and your family because, no matter how tired you are from a long day/night, you always manage to smile about it.

      I don't take that many selfies because I'm always tired, and smiling is the last thing on my mind. Plus, my kids are always dressed better than I am. haha!

  3. I never dreamed of a wedding. I never even wanted to get married, but once I was, I can't imagine life not being married. Like Lauren said, the wedding does not make the marriage. Your commitment does. You have a beautiful family and I wish you a lifetime of happiness!

    • Getting married is scary. As much as I love Jeff, I used to think maybe marriage really isn't for me.

      Our commitment to each other and our family has really made things easier.

      Thank you for the wishes, Jules. Same to you and your family ๐Ÿ™‚

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